Day 3

I didn't sleep well again...and I know that's key in proper weight loss to have a good night sleep. I was tossing and turning because my body was so sore! I know that the more I exercise though the less sore I will become...so I'm marching forward and going to start my 3rd day of P90X!

How am I feeling you ask? When I close my eyes and feel sore all over...I begin to think I should be thinner already! this is when my brain starts to play tricks on me.  Telling me "look at the work your putting in and you're still fat"! However, as my husband has said...it takes 3 weeks to get into a routine and and several weeks to see big results...so I'm going to try the hardest that I can...to keep going for another 87 days to complete my 90 day challenge!

I'm so proud of myself! Went to a wedding reception and it was at one of my favorite places SmashBurger and I didn't get a milkshake, burger or their yummy yam fries! I instead got a baja cobb salad with dressing on the side and a plain black iced tea! I did indulge in a bite size (literally bite size) red velvet cupcake! It was a wedding after all...it would be rude! I'm patting myself in the back because I'm not going to be this sore for no reason! I have to keep that mindset even if it's really hard...

Day 3 breakdown:

• P90X Arms & shoulders 50 minutes
• success at choosing what I wanted to eat vs. what I actually ate!
• mood is positive today
• weather was 80 degrees which reminded me how I want to look in a bathing suit!!! Scared me a little that it's only 2 months away! 

Day 2

So I couldn't sleep last night because I was...get this...excited (yes I used the word excited) to start working out today and so I got up at 6am!!! 


I just finished my 2nd day of P90X which I had to skip a DVD because I think my daughter has it in her computer so I did their legs and back DVD! ALOT of squats and wall squats and more squats! I think they are bittersweet...I love/hate the wall squats at the same time! I love them because I can feel the pain right away so I feel like I'm accomplishing something but hate it because I can feel the pain right away and it hurts!!!! 


My favorite part so far of the 2 days are my juice plus chocolate (with half banana) protein shake I get to have right after my workout! It's sooooo yummy!!!! Is that bad that I said that...after all...this is a weight loss journey and I just posted my favorite part was the chocolate shake??? 


Had lunch with my friends and ordered a greek salad with salmon! Ah-ha a better choice! normally I wouldn't have cared and ordered their fish & chips or something with fries...but the salad was delicious! I have to say that after a couple of hours of having lunch...I'm craving something sweet and normally I would reach for a brownie or a cookie or some ice cream but today I think I will reach for a couple of strawberries instead! Ah-ha! a better choice :)


Tonight I had a salad for dinner but it's been a struggle tonight as my head is starting to hurt (I think from all the sugar I have been eating and my body was used too and now really cutting back the last 2 days...the same with caffeine from having 2 cans of pepsi nearly everyday the past few weeks...BTW I found a pepsi that is made from cane sugar vs. high fructose and in my mind I justified it was okay to drink because it didn't have high fructose!!! good one Kate...Ah-ha a BAD choice!) and it's also a struggle tonight because my body really really aches! It's so sore from the 2 days of P90X! I can't sit down or get up without hurting! People say that's a good thing...but really? is it really a "good" thing to not be able to laugh without it hurting? or sit down to use the toilet? or wash your hands without wincing? Hmmmmmm.....I'm going to have to look up the definition of "good"!


here's the breakdown for Day 2

• 60 minuetes of legs/back P90X 
• 75 crunches
• excited in the AM but tired by night and a little discouraged as my head hurts/body achs
• really tired today and lathargic probably from the lack of caffeine/sugar my body has been used too
• didn't track my calories but around 1200

Here we go!

I woke up this morning feeling "normal"...meaning I had no intention that today was going to be "the day"! You know...every dieter says..."I will start tomorrow..." but whoever does? Well...that would be ME! Yeah me! (semi sarcastic)

My brain is wired really really really crazy...not sure if it's all the fumes of kim-chi (fermented cabbage from Korea) back in the homeland or perhaps it was the daily aerosol hairspray I used back in the 80's to keep my bangs as high as the scene in "what about Mary"! But when something clicks in my brain...I'm ALL in! So...today I'm ALL in!!!

I want to emphasize how much I love God on this journey and I want to share with you how much I think...wait...I KNOW He loves me! Take a look at my 34 years of existence...God is written all over it! He has scooped me and plopped me and prevented me and guided me to where I am now...which is a very blessed and loved person!

NOW...look at me...just physically speaking...not as a whole and I'm so wonderful in my heart blah blah blah...but truly physically...I'm a mess! I have rolls coming out of who knows where...can't even bend over and put my shoes on without leaning over a little bit over my roll...yes I said leaning OVER my stomach so I can reach my toes! This ladies and gentleman is ME being in control...me having total reign of my body and this is what I've done with it! It makes me sad and a bit ashamed.  I'm soooooooo grateful God is in control of my whole being...because if it was me...I would make it more of a mess like I have with my own body! Oh wait! I actually have done that tried to "pretend" I'm in control of my life...and yeah...that didn't work so well for me either...again Thankful for God's mercy and His grace on my life!

I'm not trying to lose weight so I can get attention and say "look at me and how hot I am"...other than from my husband of course :-) and I'm not trying to lose weight so I can brag and show off my body and say my way of doing this is the best way.  I'm trying to start getting my body back to where I think God wants it...in my heart I'm ready to do anything!!! However, my body is not going to let me just do anything :( and I don't think that's what God has in store for me! So...I'm ready to get disciplined and follow God's example and trust in Him and take my portion...the one He set for me... and not everyone and their mother kind of portions!

Oh I forgot! I'm also on this weight loss journey so I can potentially have a healthy pregnancy! :-) I am 183 pounds and this was my ending weight with my last child Matt not my beginning!  I had a very hard last trimester and I don't need to complicate things more for my body and for the baby! My birth mother died while giving birth to me...I don't know exactly why...and I'm assuming it wasn't because she was overweight because I am certain she was in poverty...but without knowing...I don't want to take that risk.  I might as well eliminate any possibility that I can.  God is in control and I trust Him completely! I just think he's working with a really hard palate right now :-) Not that he can't do anything...but he gave us choices and I haven't (this is just me...I'm ONLY ever speaking about me in this blog) made the best choices of what I put in my mouth!

So I am going to write down each day if you care to know...how many calories in & out, how I exercised and how I feel (honestly feel) and maybe you can relate and if you have any advice/encouragement I would love to hear them...here we go!

Day 1

• 53 minutes of day 1 of the P90X series...chest/back today
• felt great working out...but by 9pm I was already sore and feeling it
• excited to start this journey!
• didn't really track my calories today...will get better!